Backing: Meringue

Hello everybody!

Meringue, a dessert oh so sweet but not so hard as everybody claims it to be. That’s why I’ll tell you how I make my meringue. So lets get started!IMG_1303

What you need:

  • Lemon
  • 4 egg whites
  • 200 grams of caster sugar
  • 2 teaspoons of cornflour
  • A metal of glass bowl
  • (electric) whisk
  • Piping bag or sandwich bag
  • Backing tray
  • A backing sheet (don’t actually know how it’s called)
  • (Food coloring)
  • Any flavor extract of your choice

The first thing you want is to have everything that you’ll use crease free. You have to use a bowl that is anything but plastic to achieve this. Just take a piece of lemon to remove the crease out of everything. If you skip this step, your meringue will fail. – your oven on 100 degrees celsius.

Then you want to divide the egg yolk and the egg white, no trace of yolk should be in the bowl of egg whites. This recipe works with 4 eggs, but you can also use the measurement of 50 grams of caster sugar and half a teaspoon with one egg white. You can also use a hand whisk but an electric one will not ruin your arm muscles. You need to whisk the egg whites on high-speed until they have turned white and are like a foam, you will see that the volume of the egg whites has doubled by this time. After that you have to keep whisking and add the sugar spoon by spoon. You add a spoon, you whisk 20 seconds, you add a spoon, you whisk 20 seconds, etc.

The mixture’s volume will be even bigger by now and this is the time to add the cornflour and a colour and flavor. I never put in any flavor because I like the taste on its own but I do like a bit of colour. You add these and mix them on low-speed. You know the mixture is ready when you can hold the bowl upside down without anything falling from it.

After that the piping fun happens. You need to do the mixture in a piping bag and then the fun starts, you can do any form and shape but when you make these, make sure that the meringue is not higher than 4 centimeter. Pipe them onto your baking tray with a backing sheet between.

Place the meringue in the middle of the oven for 2 hours. After those 2 hours, turn the oven off but leave them in for another hour. Then take the meringue out of the oven, remove them from the backing sheet and have fun eating them! You can keep them fresh by placing them in a sealed tin.

Let me guys know if you made these meringues down below or send me them through my social media. I hope you have fun creating these treats as much as I did. I hope to see you on the next one!




Let me break the cliché of a psychologist

Let me tell you one of my secret: I’ve been seeing a psychologist for almost a year now. I’ve seen that lots of people for who seeing one would be really helpful do not so because they do not think that it is helpful. Films have given us an image that seeing a psychologist is sitting on a sofa and telling someone how you feel while they just nod.

Let me tell you that these things are not the truth. Of course, the experience somewhat varies with different psychologist, but let me tell you how my appointment are. She sits behind her desk while I am a opposite from her also in a chair, no sofa. The very first appointment has the subject ‘what exactly is f*cked up in your life’ He/she will then prepare things for the next appointments. In the following appointments it starts with if there have been things in the past two weeks that I wanted to talk about.

I am happy enough to have found a psychologist who truly understands me. She is able to not exactly make me tell about how I feel, but she is able to make me connect the dots to just make life more sense. She gives you the path to make you solve your prob
lems. When you understand your problem, why it is a problem, why it happened, why it is reasonable and how it can be solved. But she does not solve them for you, that is your own job. You have to see it life this: You are walking on a path leading to Zen-on-the-Yellow-Brick-Road-500x330your goal, but because of problems there is lots of fog hanging over your path, making it difficult to see. Then someone comes in and teaches you how to make the fog go away, leaving you with a clear path you can easier walk to your goal.

I first saw mine psychologist every two weeks for 7 months and I truly was so much more happy with my entire life leaving me with not wanting to kill myself. Then the appointments stopped because I didn’t need them anymore. This was until september when I relapsed into bad habits and I’ve been now seeing her for two
months I think. I wanted to write this to make people see that seeing a psychologist is not a bad thing, it is not giving up, it is not failing, seeing someone might lead you to the path of happiness and if you read my blog post about that, you know just how important that is. I hope that when you read this, it will help you. I thank you for reading my blog and I hope to see you on the next one.

All the love,


Positivity should be a part of your life, here’s how

“Every dark cloud has a silver lining.”

This is a quote that if I ever decide to get a tattoo, it would be this. This is a quote that I repeat every single day. Let’s talk about being positive, something that I try to be. A while ago someone asked me because of what I am who I am and what inspires me. This of course got my crazy head thinking and made me write this blogpost. Enjoy reading all of you lovely people!

Positivity. It is something so important, almost magical. No, it doesn’t help you go to Neverland of turn your online bought prom dress into a beautiful gown, but being positive or having lots of positivity makes your life much better. Let me tell you why.

A happier life is a healthier life. There is this happy hormone called endorphin, it is produced when for instance you laugh, hug, kiss or work out, the things that make you happy. The benefit of producing endorphin is that it reduces pain, endorphin is a natural painkiller. Isn’t life much better with less pain?

About 20% of the population is or has been depressed (In The Netherlands but also in the VS). This rate is huge! It shows us that life is hard and I get that, believe me when I say that I do. But it is important to learn how to deal with depressing of nerve-racking moments in life and not let the negativity control you. These are a few symbols to help you with this.

First up is the heart: The heart stands for your goals, ask yourself what you want to achieve  in not a to long period of time. Think about a year max. 5 years. Next up is the owl: The owl is wise and surely not dumb. The owl sees everything, the good and the bad. The owl also decides if a (negative) thought is relative or not. Think about your feelings and see if they are relative or not, most depressing or nerv-racking thoughts and feeling are not relative at all.
e50aa75ca28265b5cc69f92c055e6ee4Then we have the soft kitten: The kitten is all about being kind. Not only for others but also being kind to yourself. Pamper yourself! Go do something that You want to do. Lastly is the elephant: The elephant has a very tough skin and does not let things get to him, but he does carry it with him everywhere he goes. He does not let an emotion be the boss of him but he does carry everything around with him.

So when you are in a difficult situation, think of what your goal is, when your journey gets tough think about it all but you got to take care of yourself to not let it destroy you but to let it in and carry it around with you to make you even stronger. And when you succeed, much happiness will happen to you.

Also seek for the little happy things in life, like a cute picture of a kitten, candles, flowers, stars or music, many things in life can make you happy, you just have to find them.

I hope you thought this blog post was usefull. I think I re-wrote it for like ten times. I hope to see you on the next post! I also started a YouTube channel wich is also Fabilogblog so make sure to check that out.



How to chose the right college for you

Hello everybody!

This year is a very important one for me, this year I have to sign in for college. Before we begin, let me tell you about my journey and after that I will continue with tips and tricks for you.

Now, I sort of knew what I wanted to do since I was younger, I always wanted to become a fashion designer. As I grew older I’ve come to realize that this is extremely difficult and just not realistic. That is how I ended  up with Fashion&Management. At first I thought that there was only 1 college in Holland where you could take this, at the Amsterdam Fashion Institute in Amsterdam. It for sure was a great school, it was creative but with a serious side of business. I did a selection day, but they thought I was too young and not experienced enough. Sure, I was really sad about it, until I found the TMO Fashion Business School in Doorn. This school is a business school but with creative things mixed in it. When I went there, it felt like a dream. The college is expensive, but thanks to the government for being able to loan me money I am actually able to afford it. So I signed in, and guess what? I got in.

My first tip would be to truly know who you are and what you want to do for the rest of your life. Sure, you can take tests to see what college is right for you, but who knows you better than you? The dream would be to take the job you wanted to do as a child and then make that realistic. Another tip would be to look at all your options once you know what you want. Don’t be like me and focus on one school and be obsessed with it, just look around and get as much impressions that you can. You might end up loving another school  then the first one.

Be prepared to be disappointed. I wish someone told be this. You probable will sign in to multiple colleges and there might be a selection and they might not want you. This does not mean that you are a horrible person or that you are not good enough, it might just be your age or that there were just too many people who also wanted to go to that college.

Another tip would be to NOT chose a college just because your friends are going to the same one. Going to college is like starting a new chapter and it is good to make new friends and now is the time. Also, you and your friends might have a lot in common, but you are not the same person, remember this.

So this were my tips for choosing the right college for you, I hope that this helped you in any sort of way and I hope to see you on the next blogpost.




Dumb people around us

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I am so pissed, literally I am so annoyed. So here’s the thing. In my last post I wrote that the weather in Holland was horrible, well it’s now 30 degrees outside. Yeey. But there is one thing: I am really insecure about my body. I will never and I mean never be comfortable in my bikini. But today I was sorta comfortable in wearing shorts to school.

But it seems like other people don’t mind that somebody can feel uncomfortable in their own skin. Now I’ve got to say it, I am overweighted, I know that. And I’m working on it, I really am (more about that in the future). But I don’t need to hear that from others. I don’t need to hear someone, someone who doesn’t even know me, say ‘fat’ when I walk across them. That just upsets me you know?

The dummest thing is, that person doesn’t even know me. I feel like that’s something that people need to remind themselves of: you never truly know a person. You (almost) never know the whole story, what they are going through. And she mumbled it, she didn’t even have the courage to just say it out loud, in my face. Probably because I would have punched her in her face. Wait, that isn’t the dummest thing. The dummest thing is that I let it get to me. Is it really that normal that I get upset? Is it normal that I almost ran to the bathroom and just cried? Of course, that is the story you always hear, but it’s not normal.

Now this is kinda a cliché, but my name, Fabienne, starts with fab. So I like to call myself fabulous, to give me confidence. When I was sitting on that toilet, I was giving myself a little pep talk. “Who gives a f*ck what that b*tch think.” “So what? I’m f*cking fabulous!” that sorta things. This helped me throughout the day thankfully, but not without putting on a mask.

But I am who I am, so I want to think of positive things only. So if a b*tch calls me fat, I just see it as motivation. You’ve got to prove people wrong, prove people that you are better, better than them even. I feel like giving yourself that little pep talk when you are down is very important. I helps for the emotion eaters, drinkers or users. So I just deal with it that way.

Maybe if one of you reading this is harming yourself in any way possible, letting your emotions do that to you. I hope that you maybe try the pep talk thingie out and hopefully stop hurting yourself with either food, alcohol, drugs or razors. Because you are worth it, you are awesome and the world needs your awesomeness.

Thank you all for reading this and thank you for letting me rant about something.

With much love,


My every day make up

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As you read from the title, this is a beauty post. Jep, my first beauty post. In this post I am going to talk through all the make up that I use on a daily basis. So let’s get started!

I want my make up to be fresh, to look natural. But I still want every thing needed covered. Also, the ‘masterpiece’ needs to stay put all day. So to start of I use the Nivea Men Aftershave balsem sensitive. Thank you nikkietutourials for giving me this tip.

The first thing I do after priming is covering the worst bits on my face. This means my dark circles and the worst spots. For this I use the Kiko full coverage concealer. Now for foundation I use one that is actually not available worldwide but only in Holland. We have a store called Douglas where I buy the ultralight foundation. This foundation is just really a lightweight foundation with not so much coverage but enough to hide. I first used the foundation from Yves Saint Laurent the Encre De Peau. But this was a bit expensive for me. I apply my foundation with the Yves Saint Laurent Perfecting polisher brush. After foundation I conceal AGAIN, yeah I need it alright. I use the Smashbox camera ready bb cream eyes. I put this on my under eye area and any other blemishes/spots.

Now to not make you look greasy all day, I apply the Clinique superpowder double face makeup. After that, contour. I use the Benefit Hoola bronzing & countouring brush to apply the bronzing shade from the Rimmel Londen sculpting palette from Kate Moss. I’m not an expert in countour so I can’t help you there. I use the same brush and the blush shade from the same palette for blush. If any of this is too harsh I take a big brush with some face powder and go over it.

The thing I am most confident about definitely are my eyes. First I use the Collistar eyebrchanel_202tissecamelia002ow pencil on my waterline to open up my eyes. The next thing depends on my mood. If I want more of a soft look I use the Chanel Les 4 Ombres Eye Shadow Palette in the shade 202 Tissé Camélia and then the pink shade from the palette. OR I use the Catrice cosmetics Chocolate Nudes Eyeshadow Palette to create a more bronzed look. From this palette I use the glitter shade in the inner corner of my eyes.

Now I always get really nice compliments about my eyebrows. But all I do is plug them the right way and in the morning all I do is brush them into place with either an old mascara of an eyebrow brush. I curl the lashes after that and apply the mascara They’re real from Benefit. I have a certain way to apply my mascara which is that I always use more on the outside of my eyes to make them more ‘flirty’. I don’t really put lots of lip product on, usually just a lip balm because I think that without lipstick or so it really makes it seem natural. But every once in a while a lipsticks completes the look.

The very last thing is totally optional, but if I want it to feel more fresh I spray the Avène Thermal Spring Water. And that’s it! Those are the things that I do most of the days. This sure was a lot to write so if you made it this far, good job!

I hope seeing you on the next one, please let me know what you want to see.

With much love,


The paradise called Samos


The rain is pouring outside as I’m writing this, since I’m back home in Holland. So I’m just going to close the curtains, put the heater on and write this post. The past two weeks I was on the beautiful island called Samos, this is an island in Greece near Turkey (seriously you could swim to Turkey is you wanted to). I had so much fun and it truly is my paradise as you read from the title. Now this blogpost is going to be long because I am going to talk lots and lots about my holiday on Samos. Get ready.

I must warn you, most of the island is mountains, so get your stomach ready for those roads and be carefull. But that is the only thing about Samos that I don’t like. Most people don’t want to go to Greece right now for summer. They say that you can not withdraw any money and that the refugees are ruining  your holiday. Now let me tell you, we didn’t have any of these problems. You can still get cash from the bank and I didn’t see 1 refugee the entire two weeks. The media makes it such a bigger problem. This frustrates me.

Now can I tell you about the beach? OMG I loved it! Now I am a person who can just lay on the beach for the entire day. Not that I’m capable of lying down a whole day, but every now and then a swim and after that sun. Per-fect. Now there were three beaches which were my absolute favorite. Now I must tell you that I am more of a person who likes a stone beach rather than a sand beach, so these three are stone beaches. The sea has this beautiful aqua colour and has a really nice temperature.

The first beach is on the south of the island called Limnionas beach. This beach is more like a bay, we went to this beach a lot just because it was really pleasant. We rented beds for a day and had the nicest time. The food from the taverna there was delicious with a very nice looking lad working there. The second beach is Tsamadou beach, this beach is on the north of the island and is much more crowded but the sea is even more aqua on the north side of the Island and there is more wind which makes is less hot. The third beach is Potami beach, the picture shows Potami Beach from a viewing point on the road that leads to it. Potami Beach is located on the north-west side of the island. And if you like waves, this is the beach for you. Not the biggest waves for surfing but high enough for a really fun day at the beach. But I do feel like Potami beach is really commercial which I’m not very fond of.

Now what we usually did was that we went you see something culturally and after that in the afternoon we would go to the beach. Now if you like that, you can visit lots of monasteries. The ones in Samos are beautiful and often the location makes it worth going. And the funny thing is, in summer, people actually live there! So you see those, oops, I don’t really know how they’re called sorry. Now Samos is not the place if you want to shop until you drop, I liked a few places but wasn’t blown away. You often drive through these places and it’s nice I guess, not much more to say about that.IMG_0064

I like heat, I like warm weather, so Samos is perfect for me, if the apartment has air conditioning for the evenings. Now the wind on the island really determines the temperature, more wind, the feeling of lower temperature. The wind is more on the north on the island, but since we stayed on the south, the clothes we wore were very simple. Bikini, bikini, bikini. It was so hot and you wear as minimum clothes as possible. So I wore this piece which you can just throw over your bikini which was perfect.

I so loved this island, it was my second year on Samos and I still had loads of fun and did not get bored. Thank you for reading this blogpost about Samos and had fun doing so. And if you maybe consider ever going I hope that this post helped you with the decision.

I hope seeing you on the next one!

With much love,