Dumb people around us

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I am so pissed, literally I am so annoyed. So here’s the thing. In my last post I wrote that the weather in Holland was horrible, well it’s now 30 degrees outside. Yeey. But there is one thing: I am really insecure about my body. I will never and I mean never be comfortable in my bikini. But today I was sorta comfortable in wearing shorts to school.

But it seems like other people don’t mind that somebody can feel uncomfortable in their own skin. Now I’ve got to say it, I am overweighted, I know that. And I’m working on it, I really am (more about that in the future). But I don’t need to hear that from others. I don’t need to hear someone, someone who doesn’t even know me, say ‘fat’ when I walk across them. That just upsets me you know?

The dummest thing is, that person doesn’t even know me. I feel like that’s something that people need to remind themselves of: you never truly know a person. You (almost) never know the whole story, what they are going through. And she mumbled it, she didn’t even have the courage to just say it out loud, in my face. Probably because I would have punched her in her face. Wait, that isn’t the dummest thing. The dummest thing is that I let it get to me. Is it really that normal that I get upset? Is it normal that I almost ran to the bathroom and just cried? Of course, that is the story you always hear, but it’s not normal.

Now this is kinda a cliché, but my name, Fabienne, starts with fab. So I like to call myself fabulous, to give me confidence. When I was sitting on that toilet, I was giving myself a little pep talk. “Who gives a f*ck what that b*tch think.” “So what? I’m f*cking fabulous!” that sorta things. This helped me throughout the day thankfully, but not without putting on a mask.

But I am who I am, so I want to think of positive things only. So if a b*tch calls me fat, I just see it as motivation. You’ve got to prove people wrong, prove people that you are better, better than them even. I feel like giving yourself that little pep talk when you are down is very important. I helps for the emotion eaters, drinkers or users. So I just deal with it that way.

Maybe if one of you reading this is harming yourself in any way possible, letting your emotions do that to you. I hope that you maybe try the pep talk thingie out and hopefully stop hurting yourself with either food, alcohol, drugs or razors. Because you are worth it, you are awesome and the world needs your awesomeness.

Thank you all for reading this and thank you for letting me rant about something.

With much love,


My every day make up

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As you read from the title, this is a beauty post. Jep, my first beauty post. In this post I am going to talk through all the make up that I use on a daily basis. So let’s get started!

I want my make up to be fresh, to look natural. But I still want every thing needed covered. Also, the ‘masterpiece’ needs to stay put all day. So to start of I use the Nivea Men Aftershave balsem sensitive. Thank you nikkietutourials for giving me this tip.

The first thing I do after priming is covering the worst bits on my face. This means my dark circles and the worst spots. For this I use the Kiko full coverage concealer. Now for foundation I use one that is actually not available worldwide but only in Holland. We have a store called Douglas where I buy the ultralight foundation. This foundation is just really a lightweight foundation with not so much coverage but enough to hide. I first used the foundation from Yves Saint Laurent the Encre De Peau. But this was a bit expensive for me. I apply my foundation with the Yves Saint Laurent Perfecting polisher brush. After foundation I conceal AGAIN, yeah I need it alright. I use the Smashbox camera ready bb cream eyes. I put this on my under eye area and any other blemishes/spots.

Now to not make you look greasy all day, I apply the Clinique superpowder double face makeup. After that, contour. I use the Benefit Hoola bronzing & countouring brush to apply the bronzing shade from the Rimmel Londen sculpting palette from Kate Moss. I’m not an expert in countour so I can’t help you there. I use the same brush and the blush shade from the same palette for blush. If any of this is too harsh I take a big brush with some face powder and go over it.

The thing I am most confident about definitely are my eyes. First I use the Collistar eyebrchanel_202tissecamelia002ow pencil on my waterline to open up my eyes. The next thing depends on my mood. If I want more of a soft look I use the Chanel Les 4 Ombres Eye Shadow Palette in the shade 202 Tissé Camélia and then the pink shade from the palette. OR I use the Catrice cosmetics Chocolate Nudes Eyeshadow Palette to create a more bronzed look. From this palette I use the glitter shade in the inner corner of my eyes.

Now I always get really nice compliments about my eyebrows. But all I do is plug them the right way and in the morning all I do is brush them into place with either an old mascara of an eyebrow brush. I curl the lashes after that and apply the mascara They’re real from Benefit. I have a certain way to apply my mascara which is that I always use more on the outside of my eyes to make them more ‘flirty’. I don’t really put lots of lip product on, usually just a lip balm because I think that without lipstick or so it really makes it seem natural. But every once in a while a lipsticks completes the look.

The very last thing is totally optional, but if I want it to feel more fresh I spray the Avène Thermal Spring Water. And that’s it! Those are the things that I do most of the days. This sure was a lot to write so if you made it this far, good job!

I hope seeing you on the next one, please let me know what you want to see.

With much love,